Five. Cherry Blossom.

Five. Cherry Blossom.
It's spring.
Sun shines balmly, birds starts to chirp, cherry blossom flourished.
The melody of "Bom bom bom" (Cherry blossom in Korean) by Roy Kim waltzing in my flat on a Sunday morning brings back my memory with my very first boyfriend.

It was an unforgettable movie-like love experience which every girl would have dreamt of.

The dance at the ball. The late night chit-chats. The guitar he played. The constant run-intos pulled by the strings of destiny. The first kiss by the shore. The handmade bracelets. The songs he performed for me. The night journeys home. The anniversary phone calls surprise. The birthday candles surprise. And of course, the first break-up...

"我地係咪好襯呢?? 但既然當初因為一啲workout唔到/冇試過workout嘅問題而分開,, 縱使事隔多年,, 你有你的轉變我也有我的堅持. 復合也只是徒然. 啦" - Aug 24 '11.

Friends around me thought we would last long, and so did I. The 2 years of fantastical and dreamy relationship with him was so magical that our unexpected not happily ever after was quite a shock to me. How could one turn his back against you when he vowed his eternal love to you just 12 hours ago. It was then I started to lose faith in relationships. Words are just words pouring out from your mouth without trepassing your brain nor heart. "What are words worth?"

It was a blessing that my next boyfriend was patience enough to use more than a year to help me overcame this very trust issue of mine. I started to develop a concrete relationship with this high level of bank of trust with him for another 4 and a half years.

Every since then, my journey of love relationships have been like a roller coaster. I am starting to get immune with heart breakings and still carry a positive attitude towards relationships:

“落紅不是無情物，化作春泥更護花”

﹣龔自珍《已亥雜詩》

“流水很清楚　惜花這個責任
真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心
亦是無負這一生
水點　蒸發變做白雲
花瓣　飄落下游生根
淡淡交會過　各不留下印
但是經歷過　最溫柔共震"

﹣ Eason Chan 《落花流水》 

As long as we had a good time, I will forever lock the wonderful memories we shared in the safe of my heart.
"祝我幸福快樂. 我愛過每一個 請保佑我:3"

My artwork

Cherry blossom (Oil painting, pencil on canvas)

To my beloved boys (Acrylic, marker on disposable palette)

My Cherry Blossom playlist
1. Bom Bom Bom (Spring) by Roy Kim
2. 落花流水 by Eason Chan
3. 給我愛過的男孩們 by Cass Pang 

CKL

June 30 '13

A side fact: I actually moved on from my first break-up within one night. No joke. The musical by HOCC suggested to me that you may now hold onto the memory and habit with one tight, but a week later, you may forget one's smell; a month later, you may forget one's number; a year later, you may just barely remember one's horoscope or even face. It has inspired me at that time that: I had a wonderful 2 years with this prince charming, why shall I waste any second of my life mourning the fact that he does not love me now when there are so many 2 years ahead of me? The possibility of sharing and embracing many more amazing 2 years with other boys/gents kept my hopes high and march on.

Cherry blossom not in this cultural desert

Cherry blossom not in this cultural desert.

Gloria Ng

Four. Lost.

Four. Lost.
I am twenty-four, going on twenty-five.
I quitted my job in Hong Kong, arriving London.
I was a set designer, now a job hunter.
I was on my own in this journey, met a few companions but now I'm back on the road again.

What do I really want?
What am I doing here?

Scottish Molly Sweeny had limited eyesight throughout her entire life until she met Mr. Rice whom allowed her to regain her eyesight but she has eventually lost it due to mental reasons. A typical scenario of lost and found and lost. Is it truly important that you have to "found" something you have lost? Wouldn't it at times better if you just allow it to be lost forever? No worries of it to be found nor to handle the found situation.


Epic West to East Coast bike-ride 21-year-old Leo has just completed a route he aimed to finish - "To finish what he started", thou marred by tragedy on route. Growing up with growing responsibilities whilst growing old with his 91-year-old communist grandma in New York defined his new set of direction in life.

and I hope I have found what I want. 
If you have lost track of what I said, don't worry, just follow the yellow brick road.

















My playlist:
1) The Pretty Reckless - Nothing Left to Lose
2) Calvin Harris - I Need Your Love (feat. Ellie Goulding)
3) Botvik - Epilepsy
4) Les Miserables - On My Own

My work:

Girl with two boobs.

I am not okay.

CKL

May 25 '13.

LOST.

Lost- in the unique tranquility

Taken in Hvar, August 2012

Gloria Ng

GOLD DIGGER

First of all, I chose this particular topic as this month's basis because as soon as I left my student life and enter this cruel, harsh world of real life, I accidentally find myself surrounded by a bunch of 'gold diggers'. And they have given me a mixed feeling.


Gold digger. Definition (urban-dictionary) = Someone who sticks on to another person(s) only for his/her money.


In MY dictionary = socially-useless, low self-esteem, sexual skanks who would fuck, suck any he, she or it for some cha-ching, cha-ching, some bling-bling, some dollar-dollar.


So what makes someone a gold digger? I believe, and this is 100% based on my instincts & observation and absolutely 100% 0 statistics or bar-chart-diagrams supported, that these bitches do these mainly because of their insecurity and lack of confidence in themselves and well, just pure laziness. 
Theory 1) Not that they do not believe they have confidence or the power, it's just that they do not believe they can make enough money to support the lifestyle.
Theory 2) Just lazy. Pure. Lazy. Why work your ass off, kill your brain and earn ank's fees when you can gain shit loads from doing jack shit? I mean literally, jack someone's shit off! 


Whichever the theories, gold diggers are surprisingly shallow-minded when it comes to money but surprisingly deep when it comes to their wallets (& throats... if you get what I mean *wink wink*)


I have huge admiration to those who become gold diggers and I pity them too. It takes a lot of luck, a lot of research, a lot of patience, and frankly, a lot of sex too to become a gold digger. If only, I can do more research, more patience, more self-pity, I guess I would jump right off to the next rich guy or lady and fuck the stinking $$$$$$ out of them! 

All bullshit aside, if you have any self-respect, self-esteem, self-confidence, self-loving, I do hope you will not go on being a gold digger. Not that one is not allowed to love a rich man and be automatically categorized as gold digger, just do not love a someone because he/she is rich. Love them despite they are rich.



Hi-ho (Snow White) lyrics


We dig dig dig dig dig dig dig in a mine the whole day through
To dig dig dig dig dig dig dig is what we like to do

It ain't no trick
To get rich quick
If you dig dig dig 
With a shovel or a pick
In a mine (In a mine)
In a mine (In a mine)

Where a million diamonds
Shine

We dig dig dig dig dig dig dig from early morn to night
We dig dig dig dig dig dig dig up everything in sight

We dig up diamonds 
By the score
A thousand rubies
Sometimes more
We don't know what we dig them for
We dig dig digga dig dig

(musical intro)

Hi ho!
Hi ho!
Hi ho! Hi ho! Hi ho!

Hi ho, Hi ho
It's home from work we go
(whistles)
Hi ho, Hi ho, Hi ho

Hi ho, Hi ho
It's home from work we go
(whistles)
Hi ho, Hi ho
(more whistles)

Hi ho, Hi ho
Hi ho, Hi ho
Hi ho, Hi ho
Hi ho, Hum

Hi ho, Hi ho
It's home from work we go
(whistles)
Hi ho, hi ho, hi ho, hi ho 

Three. Goldigger.

Three. Goldigger.

Money. Materialistic. Brandism. Plastic. Long Legs. Big Boobies. Trade. NO WORK or more work on visual maintenance?
Everything has a price tag, their target do and so do themselves. &who said a goldigger must be a woman? Guys whom depend on their partners/parents and not being aggressive in improving themselves are goldiggers, digging the fruits their families and friends achieved.

My interpretation of Goldigger.

My References:

"Chickenweeds (Flower Series), 2010" - Alfredo & Isabel Aquilizan

"Chickenweeds (Flower Series), 2010" - Alfredo & Isabel Aquilizan

"Chickenweeds (Flower Series), 2010" - Alfredo & Isabel Aquilizan

"Bette Davis (from Pictures of Diamonds, 2004)" - Vik Muniz

"King of Queens, 2012" - Rashaad Newsome

My song playlist:
1. "Price Tag" - Jessie J
2. "I like that" - Richard Vission

My work:

CKL

May31 '12

Two. Mistakes.

Two. CKL.

聖人都有錯.
I have been encountered with various of recent incidents related to mistakes ever since we have came up with the topic of this unit.
Back in the days in Headington, the teachers encouraged us digesting words and raise questions. I still remember my first Geography lesson on glacier, a classmate asked a question out of nowhere: "Mrs Geoffrey, why is snow white?" I rolled my eyes, urgh what a meaningless question. Teachers that I have been came across would have shunned me if I ask things like this. Surprisingly, Mrs Geoffrey answered it throughly in a way that would interest me dig deeper into the core of glacier formation and things other than textbooks. That's how they roll in England.
With my 6 years of education in UK, I have learnt to digest, to ask, to question and to challenge.
Yes and to ask stupid questions.
When I had my first tutorial in uni, I was frustrated and admitted to my tutor how I had a few technical mistakes in my project. "Karen, you know what, having mistakes is good. We are actually expecting mistakes and we love mistakes. It is the process of learning, without making mistakes, you will never learn and we would love to see how you encounter and solve your problems. You won't be perfect in your first year, neither your second nor final year. Cos you're not perfect and never will you be perfect. Mistakes are beautiful cos it marks your learning process. If you're so good that you don't make any mistakes, you don't even need to go to uni, you can simply be my tutor teaching me. And in fact, I'm still learning from you youngsters too." I have to admit I'm the kind who makes numerous careless mistakes and course I looooove this idea of failing and climbing from where I tripped hahahaaa

So it surprised me that it would be offending people when I spot out their mistakes and ask questions upon that.
Wells, that's how their roll in HK. Superiors are always right.

"The biggest mistake you can make is to be afraid of making one."

It is my mistake that I couldn't come up with any artwork in this unit. Theres just too many ideas in my head that I don't know where to start with. I like the idea of using tipix, erasable ink pen and cassette tape film as medium. But yea, how shall I start &I didn't have any time to date experimenting... hahaaa...
Mistakes to me are positive motivation for improvement and it is another way of doing things.
One would try and amend, erase or pray to the capital him that time could be reversed, wanting to start again.
But "What is done cannot be undone." - Macbeth, William Shakespeare. At least we could try and learn from our mistakes and be a better person:)))

My scribbles of mistakes.

References:

Cartier

My previous work upon mistakes, Dec 2010.

My mistake playlist
1) Katy Perry - Firework
2) Marina and The Diamonds - I Am Not A Robot

CKL xxx
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May 6 '12